aimer et vivre

i will choose to do these things over most other activities:

1. read about addiction
2. learn Irish Gaelic
3. take pictures of nature
4. bake things and eat them

fuckyeahharrypotter:

maiawithoutsound:

A while back I had this idea to custom make 1” silicone bands with “Make Love. Not Horcruxes” on it in all four house colors. I finally found a website that would make them, but I need at least 5 in every house color. They’d cost about $3-5 with shipping.

Since this was posted on FUCKYEAHHARRYPOTTER my tumblr/ask box has exploded.

FOR ANYONE INTERESTED IN PURCHASING THESE BRACELETS please send me an email  no later than January 25th  (the last day to order bracelets).

SEND TO: maiaophilia@gmail.com 

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i havent tumbl’d in AGES.

so here’s some kind of return to normalcy:

i’m back in school, 30-Rock comes back tomorrow.

actually nothing is really normal besides those 2 things.

this semester i am working at Canton-Potsdam Hospital in the Chemical Dependency Rehab. so far i love my supervisors and patients, and every day and moment is exciting. i’m brimming with new and previous knowledge, and i still know this is what i’m supposed to do forever. it’s quite the feeling.

we’ve got a new roommate upstairs. he’s very quiet and nice, and quite different from Molly & i.

i’ve been going to the gym about twice a week. it’s seriously remarkable and impressive that i’ve had that kind of motivation.

i applied to grad school at Syracuse. i’m looking forward to experiencing this semester with the internship and my new friends, but i can’t help but be anxious/excited for grad school. when i get home in may i’m going to completely re-do my bedroom, set up an office in our under-utilized dining room, join a gym, make money at the bakery & the schools, and enjoy the fuck out of the summer.

life seems to be happening.

=]

i slept for a few hours tonight and this is what i dreamt:

i was searching for someone or something and i had to travel to this in-door factory world where there were only male “little people”, but they were actually about my height. when i arrived they were obvi shocked to see me because i was a woman and a “big person”. there were classes of jobs and they might have had magical powers…there were definitely human photo-copiers. i criticized some process when talking to the VP and he didnt appreciate that. i don’t remember anymore of that storyline.

also dreamt about being in an extremely large tent with old high school classmates. there were severe divisions between people and old vendettas still being worked out. there were newer people from my life there as well, and strangers. things shifted and i was suddenly borrowing furniture from an old co-workers friend, while staying in a house that seemed to belong to no one. there was something creepy and amuck with the neighbors. an old man lived next door and he wasn’t allowed to do something, i don’t remember what. i think it was dangerous to leave the house at night. it was very windy outside at night, and there were odd animals that belonged to the owners that i had to let in and out. the only animal i remember was a rooster.

i think the order of these dreams might be all messed up, but they all flowed in and out of each other. at some point i was walking on a pool deck and stairs that had a string of those christmas lights that are in a tube, and they were half-working. there was something really magical and special about the light they were producing. there were people there who were obviously my friends, but i don’t know who they were - two guys and a girl. one of them gave me a wig that had christmas light-bulbs in it, and i was supposed to be Hermione when i wore it, but only in the swimming pool …. it was all inexplicably linked to harry potter fan-dom. i had a tattoo on the back of my right hand that someone pointed out to me and i never remembered getting it. it was a rectangular landscape and had some phrase from HP on it, and several stars. i continued to be bothered by its inexplicable presence for the rest of the dream.

i think things shifted to being in the bakery working, and then to eating in a cafe. there was a man there who i was acquainted with, and i needed something from him, or wanted to get to know him so i ended up sitting with him. he definitely had a code-name with my friends. there was some girl from my past there, and there was some strange purpose having to do with this man i knew making us art. he made very eccentric pieces and was going to custom-make something for me that i would covet. my friend Alex was involved at some point in the cafe. and i also saw one of my enemies waddle by my table, and i snickered. there was a girl whose outfit we all praised - i believe she was wearing a large hoop-skirt. the man i was acquainted with later made my house move toward my destination, rather than me needing to go outside to my car or something.

i just spent a looong while analyzing my graduate school programs, rather than actually fill out the application [which costs $75 …. there’s a pattern with $ as youll see]

but anyway, i will go to grad school to get my MS in Clinical Mental Health Counseling and my Advanced Certificate in Addiction Studies. this will take about 3 years. but i’m sure i will age approximately 15 years from stress. but after taking comprehensive examinations in my final semester, i will graduate. during my last semester i can take an exam to become a National Certified Counselor [NCC]. and upon graduating i will be able to take an exam to become a Certified Addiction Specialist [CAS - also national]. i dont know how much the NCC exam costs, but it will no doubt cost $$. the CAS exam costs $95 just to APPLY, and $285 to take the exam …. and another $100 if i need to take it a second time.

at this point, being graduated with degrees and certifications under my belt, i will have to find a real addiction-counseling job …. lest i remain in limbo. once said job is acquired, i will have to apply for a limited permit to practice counseling in NY …. and i don’t even want to find out if that costs $$ right now. then, i will need 3,000 hours of paid work experience to take an exam to become a Licensed Mental Health Counselor [LMHC] in NY. during that same work experience time, if it is in fact an addiction counseling position, i can count 2,000 hours of paid time toward becoming a Certified Alcoholism and Substance Abuse Counselor [CASAC] …. and that sucker is just for NY as well. [again, not gonna look at fees for that one yet, and hopefully working as a counselor for a few years will make the fees less painful.]

NEW YORK HAS SO MANY REQUIREMENTS. i can get f-ing national certifications after graduating, but i will have to jump through hoops to practice [legally] in my own state. aye carumba. BUT, i want to do it. i’m gonna do it, and by the time all the stress of it is done maybe i’ll be ready to adopt some kids. ha.